Not Denying
We cannot and should not deny the great discomfort
physically and mentally that accompany anyone living with Type 1 Diabetes. As I
write, my son is sleeping and I can only think of what an awesome and
courageous child he is. How little he complains and how much he does each day
as if nothing was working against him inside his body. It’s not until his sugar
either starts dropping or has spiraled upwards that he stops and remembers
Diabetes is still hanging out in our home.
I am not advising that anyone, especially someone with a
child with T1D, ever ignore or live ignorantly of the reality that presses upon
them. Diabetes is real and it is most definitely no one’s friend. But, man,
when it shows up at the door, it walks in, uninvited I may add, bags packed and
ready to hang, ready to stay.
This is the part we don’t like. It dared show up
in our world that was sort of doing well. It has entered and taken over many
homes.
Taken over
Diabetes has taken over if all you can do is weep over the
fact that it won’t go away. If you find yourself or your child immobilized with
fear and sadness and as if your world is over, Diabetes has taken over. Some
parents begin to lessen the activities their child can participate in like
birthday parties, going out to eat and the occasional treat. If you walk around
so stressed out that you no longer enjoy life, maybe, and I can be wrong,
Diabetes has taken over.
Close the Door Symbolically
Unless a divine miracle takes place in your life or mine, we
are sort of stuck for now. But, we can make a declaration. We can take life
over again. Symbolically and by faith, we can cut Diabetes’ stay short and
remind it that it is not only unwelcomed, but has to go. By now you either
stopped reading, or are getting ready to write to me to tell me I am crazy. I
believe, by faith, I can see Diabetes walk out of my home. I believe that
symbolically, if it seems I’ve lost control over my life because I’m worried or
overly concerned. You can be in charge again! Go back, as much as you can, and
begin to do the things you did as a family. Yes, you will have some extra bags
along for the ride, but do it anyways.
You may have to prepare yourself for the positive along with
the negative that may happen as you take a step forward and begin to take your
living and breathing space again, but oh, the release you will experience.
Living By Faith
I am a woman of faith. I believe prayer changes things. I
also know that there are things I will not have the answer for. Why my son and
my brothers are not healed is something I wish I could understand. But one
thing I do understand is that I will not live bitterly, beating myself over
with a bat and being angry at God. I’ve seen the healing hand before at work in
my family and this gives me the assurance I will see it again.
Get rid of the spirit of despair. It will only weigh you
down and stop you from spreading your wings to fly. And you know what? While
your wings are clipped, so are your child’s wings unable to spread wide open to
embrace the adventures awaiting each day. Despair and anxiety have no place in
your life.
Live Again !
Take your life back! You have so much to live for. I look at
my son, all covered up in his bed, and next to him is his insulin pump and on
his nightstand is his blood glucose monitor. Under it is a bottle of juice. Not
the average way a child’s bedside looks like. I kiss my son on the forehead and
pray, “Lord, bring healing into this body.” And as I walk away I am filled with
hope. I closed the door to Diabetes and though I cannot ignore the reality it
has declared itself a permanent resident in this home, I make the choice to
stand in hope, on God’s promises, believing in healing until my last breath.
Until then, watch out world, this family is coming through with purpose and
courage to face each day!
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