Thursday, August 22, 2013
De-Stress, Angie, De-Stress
A wonderful person in my life whom I had the blessing to have as my supervisor for some years, always had valuable advice. As if sensing the intensity of my moments when Jacob was first diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes, her voice seemed ever so closeby gently saying, "De-stress Angie, De-stress." Early today, her advice would ring out throughout the day.....
It was early morning and those that have been following my blogs know Jacob is at camp. What made me get all stressed this morning was hearing he was up early vomiting and sugars close to 500. Google Ketoacidosis and you know what's going on. I wanted to forget work and drive up to that camp. I was angry and frustrated because I know how well I planned it all out for him.
"He must have forgotten to give himself LANTUS before bedtime." was the mantra over and over in my head. I tried calling my son Aaron again and the phone went straight to voicemail. Now, I was really agitated at the reality that I couldn't find out more of how he got this way.
I had no phone as I gave it to the boys to take to camp. So, now here I was unable to connect with them. The voice in my head was Ms. Rickey's voice, as she'd done in the past so many other times and I knew that the Lord truly knows our situation and will provide comfort and peace when we need it. I knew all I could do was de-stress. What exactly does that mean?
It means to relax. It means to stop and find a way out of your current stressful situation. And so I did the only thing I know. Pray. I decided I can't run over there but I know that the Lord can. I prayed. I can't change things. But, Lord, you can. Pray. God, I can't do anything or make anything better by worrying so all I can do is surrender every care, every worry and all my anxiety about not being there to take care of him over to you. So, I prayed. It wasn't a long prayer. It was short.
Lord, Jacob needs you right now. I need you to visit him where he is and provide him with the people in that camp that will find out what is wrong and use all I've shared with them to help him get better. Lord, I don't know what else to say except, I have no other choice but to completely depend upon you and your Word. You gave me Jacob and you can take him when you want. But, Lord, for right now, work in his body and allow him to be changed so this time up there in camp is not spent in bed. Thank you Lord. I pray in Jesus name. Amen.
And then, I went on about my day. You see, I had no phone and no car. So what would I earn or accomplish by stressing over that fact. If I believe in prayer, then I have to put my faith into action and not be all mushy about the news I had gotten earlier. Well, 5:30 pm tonight Jacob's sugar was 147. HOORAY! He's out playing with his friends and I hear him in the background with his happy voice. I ask a few questions and get an affirmative, "Yes." He forgot to give himself Lantus last night as I had concluded earlier. I made them repeat instructions to me over the phone and said I'd show up tonight if they forgot. Believe me, no boys want mom showing up at camp. They will remember.
Frankie, Jeru and I will be leaving early to spend Family Day with the boys. I am thankful for the people God places in our paths throughout our lives. You see, today I needed to hear, "De-stress." Today I needed to relax and pray and trust. Are you stressed and anxious about news you have received that is really bothering you? Do you feel like you have to run out of your way and go fix the situation yourself and no one else can do it? Do you realize that all is going wrong but your worrying can't make it better because you have no way to even get to the person that needs your help? Then please hear the advice, "De-stress." Rest in the Lord's care, pray, trust in God's ability to keep His promises and take care of your needs. Thank you Ms. Rickey, for the reminder to take a deep breath, and de-stress. And, thank you Lord for giving me peace throughout this day!
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